Friday, February 24, 2006

i m crazy!!!!!!!
pardon me!!!!

♥ i didnt know how hard i could cry 9:48 AM

Sunday, February 19, 2006

feelin veri down now. m i suffering from depression?? one moment i can be so high n the other i can feel so fuck up. worst is the ppls ard me gotto suffer. argH! fuck fuck fuck! hai. was lyin on mybed for so long jus now. couldnt sleep. thought of bloggin. there was so mani things i wanted to kaobei on. but now. jus simply dunno wad to type. argh!! SAD

played soccer in the afternoon todae. lost again. wtf. there doesnt seems to be any teamwork for my team anymore. everyone jus play like shit. n complainin abt each other. quarrelin. WTF. haf a deep cut near my shin. ha. there is this guy whch i doesnt like his playin style. i wan to injured him. yes i wan to. i ran in to challange him. slide him. ha. he got pass me. n i land on the sandy part of the pitch. great. useless me. n when i was findin for the onli sub we haf. he haf went home. cos he need to go out wif his gf. ha. ELITEZ FC? bullshit. 5-1 socreline? BULLSHIT. where is the mighty elitez? argh! DISSAPONTED.

i was thinkin jus now. wads the mu di of me living? n i cant gif an answer to it. ha. argh!! FUNNI. my studies sux. my lifw sux. everything sux.

stuck on kelly's you xie ai and fei ai bu ke now. this two songs are the sentimental type. hear le make myself more depress onli. HAHA. but. i jus luv them! esp. the lyrics. i cant type chinese. or else i wil publish them out.


summary : yien's life= bullshit.

♥ i didnt know how hard i could cry 4:15 AM

Thursday, February 16, 2006

wooHOO . i mback
KELLY
yes! kelly cd is finally out. bought it ytd. 28.90. ex sia. bUT worth it! hhaa so mani free gift. the songs are super nice lor. wahseh. all of them r nice. i m nt lying! n yes. the song playin in my blog. JI SHI ZHA DAN. ha. my favourite ! n it is compose by KELLY! whahah. SUPPORT kelly.!! haha if 28.90 is too ex buy the 18.90 one also can. ANYONE tt buy the 18.90 version pls lend me the cd n scan the cover. she look super pretty in tt. OMG! haha, im mad! i m gonna be crazy over kelly for at least one mth liao. KELLY's FEVER is back. hahaha. BUY HER CD BUY HER CD BUY HER CD!!!!haha .

result
got my result last week. feel okie abt it. i didnt fail any subject. YEAH. quarrel wif my parents over wad course to study in poly. tot they will not interfere abt it. i LONG for business course for so long liao lor. kao. now ask me to gifup on it. saw wad no future for guys. ask me take engineering. wakao i dun even know a shit abt engineerin lor. kao. on the last dae of jae submission i quarrel wif them. in the end my mother tell me dis in a sacarstic way " u wan study wad study wad la. or else nxt time blame us." kao wtf. u think i can study well without you all de support la. GREAT la. in the end i put business as my first two choice den engineering. but i know i sure get into engineerin one. cos the business courses i put require veri low pts. hai. sad la. nvvr expect my parents to become liddat. tot they will uds me! ASS them, arGH! now i m defitnely goin to SP. Yeah i shld be happi abt it. my target poly. but now. it feel so nth inside me. BULLSHIT man, argh!

valentime day/masam bday
meet by n cw early in the morning. was intendin to go buy flower for the girls. they sae no flower they wont go out wif us. (GREAT FREN) haha. went to look for flower at hougang greeen at first. wakao. the market sell flower at 15$ per stock. n it is FROM MARKET, bullshit. we decided not to buy from there n proceed to cp. there is dis flower shop at cp. which is much more high class. BUT here comes the dilema. super ex. haha n then. we r jus buying for frens. not girls we like. haha. we stand outside the flower shop thinkin whether we shld buy for super long. n den i decided to buy. make them happi la. haha. otherwise so kelian for them. haha. n then i bought a sunflower wif some nice packagin for abt 40 dollar. OMG! haha by n cw bought roses. abt 40$ too. haha. n i feelin rich bought two extra stalk of fake flowers. lol. ex ex ex. lol. meet sb masam evelyn huishi n youmin after tt. i gave flower to evelyn by gave to huishi n chongwee to youmin. derek was suppose to gave to qingyun but he didnt buy. GREAT man. lol. went to kbox after tt. haha . i sing the most la. lol. so HIGH! we dedicate a birthdae song to masam . haha. he almost cry. tears in his eyes. lol . veri touched! lol, after tt meet qingyun ming shang n roy. eat at cafe cartel. haha. take alot of picture tt dae. the girls are carzy. lol. after tt went to esplanade. to ka jiao the couple there. haha. cut masam cake over there. lol. gave him a suprise. lol . he is super touch again. lol . tts wad brather for okie. lol. after tt went walk walk. then decided to took a cab home. bullshit cab drivers. none of them wanted to stop. n its like ten empty went pass us n none of them stop. pretendin not seeing us. n we waited for abt 45 mins. FED up! decided to take mrt. kao. i called those who take mrt n not cab. n they werre already home. wahseh! feel so fuck up. bloody comfort smrt citycab silver cab red cab green cab. i wan to COMPLAIN man, argh!

haha. KELLY ROX KELLY ROX. recommnended song for keely cd----> track 1 to 10. haha. beside these the others not nice liao. LOL. haha! i m soo lame.... wadeva! n yes thanks our boss for allowing us to take leave tt dae. HAHA.

♥ i didnt know how hard i could cry 10:03 AM

Saturday, February 11, 2006

我们肆无忌惮 我们成群结党
我们目无尊长 对什么事都不满
看着我们的成长 只会制造麻烦
我们就是一无是处你又能怎样

我们 Don't Give A Damn 那看不起的眼光
我们什么都不是 我们什么都不管
我们之间为什么会渐渐地没有语言
我们之间有道墙

学校老师束手无策父母臭骂我们不会想
这个社会的标准已经超出了我们这年纪的有限想象
只认定会读书就一定是好孩子的榜样
别以为看不起我们 就告诉自己比人家强

有多少人关心我们为何会走错迷失方向
又有谁会 替我们想想苹果为何变烂
其实我们也曾努力要争取所有人的称赞
扪心自问你们究竟给了我们多少希望

泪水已经流干，前途也很渺茫
迷失的灵魂，我们应该怎么办
惩罚我们就是堂皇的协助成长
然后让我们一生绝望

有些人幸运天生没有战场
我们一出世就是自己孤军作战
站在十字路口的风雨中呐喊
不要让我们一生

♥ i didnt know how hard i could cry 11:57 PM

Thursday, February 02, 2006

its CNY! yeah! happi new yr everyone.
nth special fr dis cny. hongbao , gamble , eat , gamble , gathering , gamble again. ha. shall nt elaborate too much on it.

bagua
my farking bagua job finally ended. i jus dun uds y so mani ppl go ps n buy bagua. PS is for shoppinn and movie nt bagua. CMON PPL. ha. this job is extremely BORING FUCKUP for me. yes. ppl there r nice but jus dun like it. customer r extremely irritating over there. there is dis guy who wanna fight wif us cos we didnt wanna gif an extra paper bag to him. WTF is wrong wif him. this stupid job make my temper super bad for the whole dammn month. n yes! cashiering at the shop is anyone can do one. n the fuckin manager will always sort of blame me whenever ani credit or nets mistake were make. wtf man. its alwaes me. i do double check everytime leh. kao. n pls I am a cashier at expo b4 OK! serving thousands of ppl everydae. WTF! $##@!@##$, argh! but now is over! over! but a new nitemare is comin. o lvl result!

chalet
went to 4g chalet during mid jan. was enjoying myself happily wif the alcohol n food when sudd ppls start tellin us tt moe haf send a letter to ppl hu scores 15-20 for o lvl to be a teacher. I DIDNT RECEIVE IT. those hu normaly haf poorer result didnt receive it too. the moment i heard it i was like so turn off man. the beer i was drinkin was like so bitter. the chicken wing i am eating is like so sour. my whole fuckin mood was destroyed! fuck it. wass suppose to ton the whole nite which i know i can do it. i m an owl k. but choose to slp at 3 in the end. 3 okie? its like even at home i will onli slp at 3 plus lor. kao.

feelin so afraid rite now. i wan go to a good course in poly. heard fr ppl tt 10th of feb will be the dae. fuck it. hai. feelin so argh rite inside . wanted to vent it out. but hai. think nobody will uds how the fuck i m feelin la.

there is this good brather of mine. he did smth wrong big time. i haf alwaes treated him as my best fren tinkin tt i uds him. HA. tts rubbish. in my whole grp of brathers i think everyone treated him as a best buddy. but i dun think he cherish us at all. HA. tts so stupid of us. jus wanted to tell him LIFE consists nt onli RELATIONSHIP. u still haf FRENS n FAMILY.

dunno wad the fuck i m doin now. feelin so low everytime. so confuse+fedup+fuckup+dissapointed+sad INSIDE.ARGH! at times i feel like crying at times i feel so high. being lame doesnt even helps to make me feel better now. ha. hai. ha. hai. BOO! fuckit.

♥ i didnt know how hard i could cry 4:00 AM