Thursday, February 02, 2006

its CNY! yeah! happi new yr everyone.
nth special fr dis cny. hongbao , gamble , eat , gamble , gathering , gamble again. ha. shall nt elaborate too much on it.

bagua
my farking bagua job finally ended. i jus dun uds y so mani ppl go ps n buy bagua. PS is for shoppinn and movie nt bagua. CMON PPL. ha. this job is extremely BORING FUCKUP for me. yes. ppl there r nice but jus dun like it. customer r extremely irritating over there. there is dis guy who wanna fight wif us cos we didnt wanna gif an extra paper bag to him. WTF is wrong wif him. this stupid job make my temper super bad for the whole dammn month. n yes! cashiering at the shop is anyone can do one. n the fuckin manager will always sort of blame me whenever ani credit or nets mistake were make. wtf man. its alwaes me. i do double check everytime leh. kao. n pls I am a cashier at expo b4 OK! serving thousands of ppl everydae. WTF! $##@!@##$, argh! but now is over! over! but a new nitemare is comin. o lvl result!

chalet
went to 4g chalet during mid jan. was enjoying myself happily wif the alcohol n food when sudd ppls start tellin us tt moe haf send a letter to ppl hu scores 15-20 for o lvl to be a teacher. I DIDNT RECEIVE IT. those hu normaly haf poorer result didnt receive it too. the moment i heard it i was like so turn off man. the beer i was drinkin was like so bitter. the chicken wing i am eating is like so sour. my whole fuckin mood was destroyed! fuck it. wass suppose to ton the whole nite which i know i can do it. i m an owl k. but choose to slp at 3 in the end. 3 okie? its like even at home i will onli slp at 3 plus lor. kao.

feelin so afraid rite now. i wan go to a good course in poly. heard fr ppl tt 10th of feb will be the dae. fuck it. hai. feelin so argh rite inside . wanted to vent it out. but hai. think nobody will uds how the fuck i m feelin la.

there is this good brather of mine. he did smth wrong big time. i haf alwaes treated him as my best fren tinkin tt i uds him. HA. tts rubbish. in my whole grp of brathers i think everyone treated him as a best buddy. but i dun think he cherish us at all. HA. tts so stupid of us. jus wanted to tell him LIFE consists nt onli RELATIONSHIP. u still haf FRENS n FAMILY.

dunno wad the fuck i m doin now. feelin so low everytime. so confuse+fedup+fuckup+dissapointed+sad INSIDE.ARGH! at times i feel like crying at times i feel so high. being lame doesnt even helps to make me feel better now. ha. hai. ha. hai. BOO! fuckit.

♥ i didnt know how hard i could cry 4:00 AM