Sunday, March 26, 2006
kelly's blogsuddenly gt the urge to blog. ha. guess wad. i found kelly's BLOG. kelly pan jia li BLOG. omg. i was searchin for her pic in yahoo when sudd i saw this link to her blog. iat first i tot must be some bian tai like go setup a blog for her. but den. aha, NO. its her. the blog is abt 2 yrs old liao. lol. last post was july 26 20005. boo. she stop udating after the pss thing. read all her entry. veri de diff fr the kelly which we see on tv. she was sad, empty, n lonely at part of her life too. den her entries most of it is in chinese. COOL. her entries make me think alot. rrly alot. sudd the same old qns pop out in my mind again. wtf is life. wtf is dat. hai
life?y does some ppls will also be so lucky. they jus need to use some tiny effort to gt wad they wan n y does some will always haf tough life n need to work so super hard to achieve the thiing they wanted n in the end fail. jus visit my baby cousin. ha. he is god dammn cute but a cry baby. ass him. babies r the most fortunate ppl in the world. they haf no worries. they haf no pressure. n they jus need to cry n will get wad they wan. y cant we haf the "power" too. ha. i rmb me sayin this. "u r havin a tough life now cos god is training u now for ur bright future." ha. tts bullshit. bullshit. big time. LIFE LIFE LIFE. can someone tell me how to make it a better one? i m so freakin fuckup inside. which i dunno y.
there is dis phrase which kelly worte " why some ppl try to act tough n hide their feelin inside when they r actually feelin depress. " i gt an answer to it. i act funni. try to b lame cos i wan to numb myself. i wan myself to feel good. i wan to tell myself i m happi. i m nt sad. i haf no worries. yeah! i act tough cos i dun1 to affect other ppl mood. HAHA. i think this is the cause of my constant mood swing n bad temper. WOO. i hate it when i m tokin smth serious n ppl start thinkin i m ji siao-ing dem. i hate it. this make me feel so .. hai . mei you ren liao jie wo. ye mei you ren ken qu chang shi liao jie wo...
appeal resultmy tp appeal out liao. i cant get into tp business but stillcan go to tp engineerrin. but i dun liek engineerin at all. shld i stay at sp or go tp. i rrly dunno . so many factors for mr to stay in sp n so mani reason for me to go to tp. hai. wo hen fan! zhen de hen fan. i m jus one mark away fr gettin into the businees course. one mark! tts LIFE man. woo. hai.
smth fr kelly's blog
喜歡下雨，因為你不會知道我流淚..
喜歡發呆....因為你不會知道我想你...
喜歡孤單....因為你不會發現我愛你...
喜歡在你身邊..因為你是我快樂的唯一因素..shall end here. jus realise i hardly blog things tt r happy in my life. hope it will happen soon. hai. SORRY my frens. i jus need some place to vent.
⥠i didnt know how hard i could cry
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